Surprised

I've been surprised before. I've been speechless, I've even been flabbergasted, if such a state of being exists. Sometimes I don't know what to think or what to do. I guess right now I can say im exhausted!

What is it

What is it you want from me? I do the best I can to accomadate all, but there is a problem I'm having. Who takes care of the one taking care of everyone! I have been told I'm to nice, to good for some. That's my nature, until buttons are pushed, then I guess I'm an asshole! No, I'm just tired of being the "nice guys finish last" cliche. I really don't ask for much from people or a mate, but honesty and respect. Trust me though, if we ain't speakin, we ain't speakin!! As much as it may pain me to do so! I mean, I do have morals and standards, shit that I live by. I don't expect everyone to understand this, but such is my life. Since I come from a background where I had a strong mother, I appreciate women who do it theyself, but, I did however have father figures in my life, including my own father. Things like that make a difference in a childs upbringing, and can affect them as they are older. Affect their own relationship(s). It can be difficult to distinguish right from wrong if it was never shown!